In My Thoughts

Tall, Dark, and Handsome; Kind, Lovely, and Lonesome; Married to the Fires of the Valley; Or So He bids her to believe; Time is not His, to give freely; So She has come to understand; Her Heart Leaps at the sight of his words on her cell; She  Refuses to Move-on, holding tight to Hope; Hoping that He  will let her Capture his attention; She  Entertains no other, for He is Her Destination; Others entertain Her, while She awaits His monthly summons; Her mind’s eyes are forever entrenched with the image of Him; Her senses are that of His scent, touch, and taste; Her thoughts, always in remembrance of their last encounter, is overwhelming; He always leaves her Wanting More; She await his words on Her cell, beckoning her to come to Him; Tall, Dark, and Handsome. Kind, Lovely, and Lonesome.

Can’t allow myself the joy of crying; So I keep smiling. Crying means I give up; So I keep going. Crying means defeat; So I keep fighting. Crying means the end; So I don’t close my eyes at night. Crying means somebody else won, and I lost; So I continue to think of myself as a winner. Crying means I let myself down; So I give myself pep talks. Crying means I let my children down; So I make sure that I’m upright all the time. Crying means I’m not as strong as I should be; So I keep saying “I’m fine” when asked “How are you doing?” Crying means my women folk who have passed on will be ashamed of me. So I swallow the urge to cry, because there’s no one to comfort me should I dare cry. I dare not cry; For I won’t be able to stop.

DEFLECTING RESPONSIBILITY Making excuses for their behavior. Examples can be blaming you, other people or past experiences for their actions, using alcohol or drugs as an excuse, using mental health issues or past experiences (like a cheating ex or divorced parents) as a reason for unhealthy behavior. Right...it's never their fault that they're the way they are.  It's always "because of" someone or something that makes them behave the way they do.  They would even go as far as make you the trigger  that causes their insane behavior.  They make you the antecedent, the calm before the storm. And since you have become recluse and isolated from those who can guide you and see through the sham, you can't defend yourself, you go along with their assessment of you,therefore,  you're unable to tell the difference between what they want you to believe, and what you believe is the truth.  So, for the sake of peace, you accept the blame and move on.  B...