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Tell The Truth

"How are you doing, sis?"

 "I'm great, sis."


For a very long time I've been lying to myself and anyone who cared enough to ask me how I'm doing. The truth is, no, I'm not doing great, I'm barely living. But, I'm great health-wise. In a matter of 9 months, I went from a cholesterol level of 302 down to 162, my blood pressure used to be at 150/90, now it's at 126/78, all my blood work from March of this year was at dangerous levels.

My doctor commended me and said she was very impressed with the improvement I'd made with my health. I improved my health through hard work. I jogged for one hour every morning, gave up junk food, stopped eating fried foods, and stopped eating red meat, I never weighed myself, because I wasn't doing it to lose weight, I was doing it to save my life.


I used to weigh 150 lbs, now I weigh 139 lbs. Most days I only ate once a day because I was overwhelmed and anxiety ridden, oh yeah, and I could not afford much food, so what little I had, I made sure that I saved it for my son. As a mother, my children eat first, no matter how old they are. That's how my mom and grandma did it, so I'm assuming it's a culture thing.

Anyway, after the year that I've had, I needed therapy very badly, so I got myself therapy, I talked my feelings out and I know things will get better. It might not happen tomorrow, but I have faith. 2 weeks ago I fell and injured my shoulder, I walk around with my arm in a sling, but it hasn't stopped me one bit, I'll heal from that.

So, my point? We don't always have to say we're okay, or we're doing great, if we're not. You won't get the emotional support you need from friends and family, if you mislead yourself, friends, and family. I think they ask because they care.

So tell the truth.


So, sis, like I told you on Whatsapp, I'm not all that great, but I definitely have my health, thanks for checking on me😘

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