"How are you doing, sis?"
"I'm great,
sis."
For a very long time I've been lying to myself and anyone
who cared enough to ask me how I'm doing. The truth is, no, I'm not doing
great, I'm barely living. But, I'm great health-wise. In a matter of 9 months,
I went from a cholesterol level of 302 down to 162, my blood pressure used to
be at 150/90, now it's at 126/78, all my blood work from March of this year was
at dangerous levels.
My doctor commended me and said she was very impressed with
the improvement I'd made with my health. I improved my health through hard
work. I jogged for one hour every morning, gave up junk food, stopped eating
fried foods, and stopped eating red meat, I never weighed myself, because I
wasn't doing it to lose weight, I was doing it to save my life.
I used to weigh 150 lbs, now I weigh 139 lbs. Most days I
only ate once a day because I was overwhelmed and anxiety ridden, oh yeah, and
I could not afford much food, so what little I had, I made sure that I saved it
for my son. As a mother, my children eat first, no matter how old they are.
That's how my mom and grandma did it, so I'm assuming it's a culture thing.
Anyway, after the year that I've had, I needed therapy very
badly, so I got myself therapy, I talked my feelings out and I know things will
get better. It might not happen tomorrow, but I have faith. 2 weeks ago I fell
and injured my shoulder, I walk around with my arm in a sling, but it hasn't
stopped me one bit, I'll heal from that.
So, my point? We don't always have to say we're okay, or
we're doing great, if we're not. You won't get the emotional support you need
from friends and family, if you mislead yourself, friends, and family. I think
they ask because they care.
So tell the truth.
So, sis, like I told you on Whatsapp, I'm not all that
great, but I definitely have my health, thanks for checking on me😘
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