Overcoming Burdens

Something is always the worst; yes, they always are.
When we're going through adversities, we always think,
"This couldn't get any worse", then it does.
But, it's never to our detriment, because we always survive the worse.

Two weeks ago, I could not imagine taking the path that I'm on right now.
But here I am, on the path that I did not want to be on.
I hate this path, but I refuse to let it defeat me, it's not an unfamiliar path;
I just don't like being on this path.

It squanders my time, of which I can never retrieve.
I see the end in the near distance, but seems like eternity.
My soul is ill; my body is ill; my mind is clouded,
For I am overloaded with life's burdens that I must overcome.

How do I overcome this burden that won't be rerouted?
I will not overcome it by fighting it.
I will only overcome it, by surrendering to it.
Then, and only then, will it let go of its grip, that's when darkness turns to light.

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